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10/31/10 you say you know me- u know who I am but u don’t know nothn and u don’t give a damn, You say you’ve got my back one-hundred-percent of the time, but that’s a lie, and if I had a dime, for every time, evey time u said that little lie, I’d be rich baby ya as rich as it could get, I’d be in a mansion livn it up I’d be like ya haha thanks girl and you’d be sayn wtf! But it’s all good- we’re cool And I don’t let on at school- that hate you O how I really do I be all nice and smiles and every-once in awhile I’ll pretend I’m choking you, and that you your dead, your gone And my life is happy once more, I move on as if nothn ever happened And no one would guess that I had had anything to do with your disappearance, your death, Cuz I be the good girl at school All sweet and innocent, no I couldn’t hurt a fly, But who said anything about me not killing a horrid beast ya what a feat O if only they knew- that I had really saved them all from you But that’s all just in my dreams, no it could never be for real, cuz your not worth that much of my time, your’re dirt and nothn more, I spit on you, and all you are what you represent But no worries cuz one day I’ll be givn you your present HahuhHaha J.

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You & Me- Rap

9/11/10

K for all u smart-asses out there who think uk who my raps r about (if in fact they are about anyone at all), then try and figure this one out.

Ya you and me, We’re almost one in the same, Only you wanna do one thing, And I another, Ya we’re not on the same page, we don’t play the same game.

You always play by the rules, But I’m a bad-ass, don’t listen to what people tell me, Cause I just don’t give a shit, I’m cool And in school I’m clown of the class, Ya I even have my teacher laughn off her ass, Ya I wasn’t meant to go to school But you, you were.

You tell me all your extravagant plans, But how do you know where you’ll land? Ya land in the end, when everything is said and done, You say you win all the battles, But has the war been won?

But even with our differences We’re still very similar, We were both butterflies right off the bat, We never got the chance to just be a cat-er-pil-lar It’s like a magician just waved his wand And we stepped out of his black hat, Into this crazy shitty world Filled with terror and horror

We like to read the same books, We always have the same opinion On the climax and hook, We both read fast, no need to slow down, Not even when driving thru the town

I’ve gotten so many tickets with my mustang, You’ve had almost non with your mini convertible, But I’ve learned I just need to be, How shall I put it… Resourceful, Ya I learn to use what I got, Ya what my momma gave me, It never hurts to look hot.

But you’re the cute innocent blond Who does virtually nothing, I wouldn’t be surprised Ya if your ******* was rustn Ya cause you’re just so innocent,

Hmmmm, the more I think about it, The more it seems, Like we’re nothing a-like ,how is that possible, How can this be?

I’ve known you foreva and a day We became friends as soon as you said hey, We’ve been inseparable since then Ya I just wonder when We started to become different.

Ya so I guess-you and me Aren’t really the same, we’re more like opposites, Me East, you west; me North, you South Ya I’m like the Moon and you’re the hot sun, Ya I’ve only just begun, Ya to compare but I should stop it right there, Cause I could go on and on and on and on, I guess we’ve officially become strangers, Goodbye my so called twin, Ya you said you won all the battles, But can you win, Can you really win the war, That has just started to wage between us?

J.

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Comparison- Rap

9-11-10

Ya I’m corrupted; the monster of the night, And you’re so sweet and innocent; Ya you’re the angel of light

I’m that hornet that stings, The one that hurts, You’re the beautiful butterfly, That everyone loves to watch fly in sky

Ya I’m the veggies, that no kid wants to eat And you’re yummy chocolate, That tastes so sweet.

Well news flash, I don’t like you, I don’t think you’re any of the above, I think you are the devil, And you are a poisonous snake, Ya to me you taste sour, And that doesn’t go away for hours and hours, Ya I’m the one that smells like vanilla and flowers, You smell like the garbage that’s taken out at night,

Ya you’re trash, and nothing more, You’re the dirt under my shoe, The bug I squish w/ my boot, Ya you’re the bathroom floor! You’re nothing but scum, Ya you not me is that annoying gum, That gets stuck in the hair and is so intolerable, Ya I’m lovable, Not you

But He don’t see it, ya he just can’t see, Through that exterior, who you really are, Ya what you be, and just how far, Your gonna go- to get what you want You stupid slut-bitch-ho!

But hahaha he’s playn you too, And after it’s all over you’ll be the one cryn, He won’t be in tears because of you, But if he is, that’s okay, Cause I’d be there for him one hundred percent, Every step of the way, I’d be the shoulder he leans on, The one that comforts him, Ya he wouldn’t need no booze, no gin and rum Ya girl you’re so stupid and dumb If you think your ploy will work, It’s just gonna come back at you, And bite you on your A I’ll just be laughn while pushn you out my way. Hey!

Ya get out of my way, Ya stay out of my life, Ya our life, He’s not yours- he’s mine Bitch, So just go, Ya get out of here you Ho! JUST STAY THE HELL AWAY!!!

J.

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Innocent Purple Picture

9/10/10

Every time I try, I try- to-get-over-you, I see this one picture, and I can’t explain What I’m truly thinkn- what’s run’n thru my brain, Just the way you look, Innocent and sweet, Like you could never do the shit that they say, Ya you just seem so great, Am I actually that easily fooled and mislead? No, I’m always on top of everything I do- ya everything, This is all so crazy, I need to clear my head,

I mean, seriously, has my heart really been deceived, No it’s not possible, I’m usually so logical, You know boi, ‘bout shit like this, But I guess this is the one exception, The one that I’m making, and must accept,

I must accept the fact- that I can really be wrong, That I’m not invincible, Ya I guess I’m no Hulk, And I don’t mean cause he’s green, and his bulk is large Only in my mind, ya only in my heart, I just wanna be a part of your life, Why is this so hard So that yours becomes mine, And mine becomes yours,

Ya you and your innocent purple picture, Why is my life so hard, ya why’s it so unfair, Hello/ does any-one hear me- Does anyone care? Is there even anyone out there?

You and your stupid innocent purple picture- why Why did I pick you to be my exception, To be my guy? Ya please boi- tell me why. I really wanna know- ya know why I like you so.

Every-time I see this pic I smile, I’ll even laugh every- once in a while, But then my vision gets blurry, gotta wipe it all way, Save my tears for another day Cause from what they say, You’re not worth spilln my tears over for, Ya I’ll eventually let ‘em hit the floor, But it won’t be on you, no not on you, Unless you confess that you like me, Then I guess I would, spill a few over But it’d be in rejoice-ment, And I wouldn’t care, if anyone else saw, Because I’d be living in the moment! Ya you and your innocent picture

J.

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Nine Eleven O One

9/10/10

Ya I know today is only number ten, But I’m already thinkn bout the women and men, Ya of Nine Eleven O One Ya every year the disaster mentally reoccurs, The damage is never over, it’s never really done

I was sittn in class today and gotta email from my mom, It showed all these new pics that ‘ev never been seen before, I wanted to cry Cry about everything, for everyone, In the awful events of Nine Eleven o one To all those who lost someone special n their lives, Ya like I said, the damage is never done

Tomorrow we will mourn, I’ll mourn for the friends I lost, and for my friends, who lost friends and family too. Ya Tomorrow will be the Day the whole World cries boohoo That most of us will put aside our differences and come together in peace, But why’d it have to go down like this, Like this for us to come together, Ya all this terrorism and shit, when will it cease, I wanna know that everyone I love and care for is safe, Safe enough to go to work That they don’t have to look over their shoulder, or out the window.

For all those who were lost and for all those who were found, I get down, down on my knees And pray, I ask and thank God about that day,

Nine Eleven o one, I was five and didn’t know much at the time, Just that everyone around me was sad And I didn’t understand, Why those building’s went kaboom, and tumbled to the ground, As if they were made of sand Ya I didn’t understand it at the time, And I find, I find that I still don’t know why, It had to happen to those gals and guys

And thank you to those who helped save lives that day, By giving up or risking your own, Ya thank you thank you, You are my true hero

Nine Eleven O One, It can never be undone, All the pain and suffering it caused,

Ya so I’ll mourn for those who lost their lives Whether it be children, husbands or wives, Every life is important And You only get one- So live everyday like it’s your last, forget about your stupid past, Just keep moving on. Just keep moving. So if you haven’t told the one you like or love, That you do- do it today, do it now, Cause there’s no guarantee That you’ll have a tomorrow.

Rest in Peace

J.

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Give Up

9-9-10

I’m a bloody mess, ya I look like shit I’m tired as hell, ya cause I took a real hard beatn, But at least a got in one good hit. I threw him to the ground, I tried to run but he got right back up- ya what the fuck He brought me down hard and hit me cross the face, I couldn’t hear a sound, it was as if I was in outer space

Dazed and unmoving I lay, I didn’t have the strength, the strength to say, That I was truly sorry for whatever I did, But please it couldn’t have been that bad- Let me live, ya just let me live.

I know I have it rough, and things aren’t always easy, And they’re never what they seem, But through it all I have one good thing, it means the most to me Please sir, let me live

You see there’s this one special guy He’s the one that means the world The one that I want to call me his baby gurl The one that makes me happy just by saying hi when- he- walks by.

You see sir, I’ve gotta live Cause there’s just one little problem, I haven’t told him yet how I feel, I haven’t said ‘hey dude, I like you a lot, ‘N I think this could be the real deal’. Ya I haven’t told him how I feel

Please, you can have your way, your way with me, But I’m beggn you, don’t let this be my last day, I can’t end ev-er-y-thing right now, Ya I know you must be thinkn ‘wow’ This girl is crazy, and you know what- that just might be,

But whatever, none of that shit matters now Cause it’s decision time sir- what will you do? Will you let me live, pray to God that he’ll save you?, Or will you just end it, end it all now, Will you close your eyes and do the bad deed The deed of murder and endin a life?

I see you’ve chosen your choice, fine But hear my voice, As loud as it can possibly be, If you ever see him- I know you know who he is, Just tell him for me, Ya tell him everything, K now you know, ya you know what I want, So I guess this is good bye world, it’s my last hello Cause it’s time, Time for me to go

J.

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Shit-Say-What Rap

9/9/10

You wouldn’t believe all the-shit-that’ve-I’ve-been-hearn They make it sound so true, But -why- you

You seem like such a great guy Ya like I’ve said before, Just lookn at you gives me high like no other I really for a lil while thought score- I finally picked the right guy to fall for,

But apparently I was wrong, I was way off base, I just…. Wow what do I say now, Ya when I look you in-to- your face,

I guess when someone trys to plan their own future , They mess with Fate, and I guess She don’t like it, Cause She just seems to close the gate, On every dream that I have at the time, man if I had a dime, Fate would be rich on just me.—ya why does this have to be.

Just say it ain’t so, And I’ll drop it, I’ll let it all go. Ya I’d never bring it up again, Even if or when u piss me off, Cause I’d know that in the end, There’s no one else I’d rather be with, When the lights go out and there’s no sound We’d be the only ones happy around But I know it’d feel like we were the only two people in this world Ya you’d be my boo, and I’d be your gurl Forever and ever Ya boi- forever and always.

So man just say, That all this shit ain’t true, That it isn’t really bout you. Because if it is…. If it’s all true and it’s about you, Then fuck, with a capital f, Because that would mean I’m screwed

J.

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Class- Rap

9/9/10

I was sitn in class today All laughs and smiles But I was thinkn bout you, Ya, you all the while.

I’ve had daydreams before, Lately they’ve been comin more and more Haha you wouldn’t believe what I imagine, I can hardly myself- but they’re amazing, Ya so I’m not complainn And trust me yo, if you had ‘em too you wouldn’t either

Ya they could be considered extreme to many, but to me they’re hardly PG, I’m not gonna even begin man, To explain what my XXX ones are like, Because I know even you, you couldn’t no, couldn’t possibly, ya possibly handle them so,

I was thinkn bout you, How you look- the way you laugh and smile too. You’re constantly on my mind I just can’t get you out, But I like it, so I’m not gonna whine and pout

You’re in my heart now and I ain’t never gonna let you out. Ya,cause-I let my-guard down, boy my-heart-was-un-locked, All it took were those first few seconds on the clock, Before I fell for you, and said I’d give you my all, I’d be the best I could possibly be for you- ya I’d even jump over the tallest tall wall Cause that’s just how much, I’ve ended up lettn you slip in, Slip into my heart, and boy under my skin, The key has past on from one to you, What will you do? I don’t know if it’s possible to turn me off, Cause Boy so far all you’ve been doin is turnin me on, Ya I’m on high, and my feelings if measured, Would reach the sky, And I’m telln you, no other guy, No other guy I’ve ever known, Has made me feel this way, On every freakn day.

But I like how it feels, So I’m just gonna try keepn it real, Won’t do much about them right now There’s always later on I guess, As long as you don’t go far to the east and I to the west, Ya I’m doing my best,

Take that last line, And do with it whateva you please, Cause it means a few different things to me,

And I’m sorry boy, this is my choice, I won’t let you hear my voice, How I’m feeln out-loud to you right now, Cause it’s just to much to handle at the moment When the time is right, Whateva the hell that means, I’ll let you know Ya boy I’ll let my feelings show

J.

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Yea I know- Rap

9/8/10

I know I’m young, And I haven’t traveled the world But I didn’t think I’d have to go so far To hear someone call me their baby gurl.

I didn’t think I’d have to search far and wide To find a guy, A guy who likes me for me, And not as a sick shitty joke, Anyone who’s like that, I hope they choke! I hope they get stung by a thousand bees I hope they get attacked by sharks, That seems fair enough, They attacked our hearts, Ya boy- u attacked mine,

But for some strange reason, I don’t want u die, Every-night I pray to God “Keep him safe, let him be ok” Cause even after all this shit is over and done with, I know I’ll still like you, Even though I know you won’t be calln me your boo. Yea- now I cry a boo-hoo-hoo, But you won’t see my tears, I’m sure of that Too you they’ll be covered, like my head in my favorite base-ball cap. Everything will stay inside, And you’ll just keep going on, Like nothing’s wrong, like ev-ery-thing- is alright. Ya but I’m not a baby No one tucks me in at night No one kisses my my skinned knees and say’s it’ll be a'ight Ya I’m not a child, I don’t and I won’t throw a fit, When I don’t get my way, Even if I know it’s not ok.

It seems there will never be, another day Filled with sunshine, laughter and play, Every day is dark and cloudy, Raining and pouring, everything is mean, Kids are glum, like on their first worst Halloween.

But see, they’re kids, they have their whole lives ahead of em But I’m stuck where I am, like a beach bum, Nowhere to go, No one to turn too Again a cry, A boo- freakn- hoo. My eyes are puffy and red now, Thanks a lot, I’m sure everyone is going to think this looks hot Ya sike I’m a mess, and it’s all because of you, My life is filled with stress, A Boo-Fucking- Hoo, hoo, hoo!!!! That’s what me- and ev-er-y -body else on the block is sayn They like “Shut up and let us get some sleep” Ya they got guns and pitchforks, I don’t think they’re playn They’re serious just like this mess But for the last time I’ll cry, A -Boo-Hoo-hoo Ya I’ve just dried my eyes No more tears will come from me, on account of thee.

J.

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Confusion- Rap

9/8/10

I feel so confused What the fuck is wrong with me, What the fuck is wrong with you! Why do I gotta be -feeln –the- things that- I do? I just want to shout at the world “fuckn Fuck You!” Why me, why this happn-n all to me, And nobody else?

Ya I’m so confused I’m going out of my mind, I wanna get away from here, Away from you, No I really and truly don’t, But I see no other way out Out of this feeling, out of this mess To be at peace with the world, No more stress- ya that’d be great Ya I don’t know why you hate, Haten on me, and on my friend too, I hear

Ya I seriously need to get away from here. Far away, And- I- never-should- come- back Back to all this shit that’s waitn for me, Ya I just don’t see What’s so great about all of this?, What’s so great- about-my-life? It’s just one big problem, Yea, one big- unsolvable mess

I feel so confused, My chest is tightening up, I’m turning purple, and now my lips are blue. I’ve just gone cold, colder than North-Pole fuckn ice Ya I’m getting ready for peace, my end is near Ya like I’ve said before, I’m all alone, No one will care, no one’s near They’re all to far away, no one will hear There won’t be a single sound come-n out of me Ya my last minutes are up, I’m runnin into seconds now, My only question is this: Why God why? It’s all over now.

J.

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